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Massachusetts Baseball, BBFF, and Infographics

25 Jul

My best friend lives in Massachusetts, and though he’s not around on a daily basis, his influence is tremendous.

Even from a distance, he’s quite the enabler and has been trafficking baseball loot to me for years.

He likes to send packages stuffed with baseball cards, and I squeal with delight when I open the mailbox to find an otherwise nondescript yellow envelope with his hand-drawn version of the MLB logo on the outside of the package.

Recently, one of those envelopes contained a disc filled with photos that chronicle the past three seasons of baseball, which I scrolled in great delight as I saw images of Varitek blocking home plate, Josh Spence in a Yoda backpack, and that kid from Philadelphia who got tased.

We’ve sent each other Starting Lineup figures, talked about statistics, and enjoyed ice cream in baseball helmets at Fenway and US Cellular on our yearly vacation to see each other (it’s his turn to visit, don’t think I’ve forgotten).

Meet Fudgy, y'all.

 

The ultimate gift that my BBFF (baseball best friend forever) has sent was a hand-made T-shirt with the New Bedford Bay Sox logo on it. This ringer tee features a whale (which we’ve nicknamed Fudgy) swinging a bat, which is arguably the cutest thing I have ever seen.

After Fudgy arrived in the mail, I started to pay more attention to my BBFF’s escapades in minor league and independent league baseball in Massachusetts, which seemed to be frequent and involved teams I had never heard of.

 

I’d get picture-texts with captions that did not make a ton of sense, because I was not aware there were so many baseball options in one state.


“Headed to a Paw Sox game!”

“Enjoying a beer with the Bay Sox!”

“Beautiful night for a a Brockton Rox game!”

“Cape Cod League game tonight!”

After half a dozen of these text messages, I innocently made the comment that it seemed that Massachusetts had a LOT of baseball.

I mean, Chicago has a lot of baseball… after all, we have two major league teams and some other teams in the distant suburbs (which admittedly I have never attended, because the suburbs are ‘far away’ as I like to describe them).

But as the texts increased, I started to think he was messing with me.

The Brewster Whitecaps? Bourne Braves? Yeah, sure. Those are real teams.

North Adams Steeple Cats? What the hell is a Steeple Cat*?

And when I thought he was finished, he just kept going, raising my suspicion that either these teams were made up or that or that every square inch of Massachusetts was actually covered by baseball fields.

Perhaps the thing I love most about my BBFF is his attention to detail.  If you ask him a question, he’s going to make sure that your question has been thoroughly answered through a detailed explanation, perhaps a link to supplemental reading, and in this case… a carefully crafted infographic.

I love infographics.  Every picture tells a story, but especially when you include words. Since I was doubting that this much baseball actually existed in Massachusetts, the BBFF made this incredibly helpful infographic that resulted in just one conclusion: there is in fact a (expletive deleted)-ton** of baseball in Massachusetts.

This infographic captures the precise location of all of the baseball teams in the state, including their league affiliation, their founding date, and most importantly: their logo/mascot. The pennants at the bottom also indicate their accolades as league champions, which surely makes Massachusetts the winningest state in terms of baseball championships.

I’ve taken this infographic as a bit of a challenge: I’d like to attend a game of every team in Massachusetts, including the ones that I am still not sure exist (Falmouth Commodores? Does Lionel Richie play there?).

This trip would not be just for posterity, but I’m sure it’d be a great adventure for me and the BBFF.

Consider it officially a part of the baseball bucket list, Nick.

* I googled this, and apparently a Steeple Cat is a cartoon cat that looks like an elder statesman holding a baseball bat. Seriously, I still have no idea what a Steeple Cat is, and I’m not sure if it’s one word or two words. I also don’t know if Cat is capitalized or not.

 ** This is an inexact measurement, containing a four-letter word starting with ‘S’ that is often used when one wants to express the fact that there is indeed a lot of something. i.e. “there are a (expletive deleted)-ton of asterisked words in this article…perhaps you should write for Grantland.”

Creatures Of Habit

10 Jul

Call me a commitment-o-phobe.

I did not develop good habits of consistency  growing up, and that’s translated into an adulthood of confusion and change.

Exhibit One: I’ve never purchased the same toothpaste more than once.

There’s a lack of brand loyalty and picking a toothpaste can be a cause of great anxiety. I push my shopping cart off to the side as I labor in front of the toothpaste shelf for what seems like hours.

I read the labels and the false promises of whitening, strengthening, and coffee-stain removal, while folks reach around me to grab the toothpaste that has never let them down from the shelf.

They are quick, even smug, in their selection as they reach for the Crest that has serviced their mouths for years as I try and decide if I’m more concerned with healthy gums, white teeth, or flavor profile.

I hope one of these smug assholes will smile. Not because I’m friendly, but because I’d like to check their gums for gingivitis as a grade for the toothpaste they select.

Often, I look at the kid’s toothpastes and pick whichever one has the most appealing cartoon character, much to the chagrin of my dentist who seems to know that I’m a grown adult using bubble gum flavored paste (perhaps it’s the fact that I demand a sticker after a cleaning?).

And my fear of commitment has led me to where I am today: living alone, after I failed miserably at living with someone else.

But with three years alone, I’m finding myself in a pattern of consistency that is oddly comforting: I’m becoming a creature of habit.

Since I don’t have to share the washing machine with a significant other, it’s easy to pick laundry day.

So, I picked Mondays.

And since I’m sleeping alone, no longer dealing with a cover-hog, I can put the pillows into whatever Tetris-pattern of my choosing.

I am the queen of the bed and I make the rules.

And as the sole guardian of the television remote, the lead climate control specialist, and the head chef, things become simple and it’s easy to find a routine.

And now the routine has become the one piece of adulthood that I relish.

On a typical weeknight, I shut down my work computer, head to the kitchen and the dog follows me. I turn around and ask, “Hungry, Lola?” in that voice that every dog-owner uses when alone with their dog. She replies in kind with a shrill bark that bounces off of the hardwood floors, and it’s all I can do to get food in her bowl immediately to stop the ear-bleeding.  And while she’s satiated, I work on provisions for myself, which can be anything that I want to make (Full disclosure: sometimes this means peanut butter directly from the jar).

While dinner cooks, I watch the MLB Network. And while sauces simmer and vegetables roast, I check my fantasy lineups and curse at how terrible I am at managing a baseball team. I was naïve early on to believe that my lineups were unbeatable, and now get a weekly spanking from some 20-year-old twerp I’ve never met, but continues to destroy me in head-to-head (I wish this were an exaggeration).

After dinner, Lola and I walk to the local park and watch a baseball league, one of the few men’s baseball leagues in the city. I take a pocket full of treats and we sit on the same bench nightly. Lola gets treats when she plays nice with small children or Mindy, the West Highland Terrier, who desperately needs obedience classes.

When home, Lola musters up enough energy to bring me her tennis ball, and I throw a side-session of cutters and change-ups against the old armoire 20 feet away. Like the Energizer Bunny, Lola runs back and forth between the armoire and my pitching mound, hoping for a wild pitch that will give her the opportunity to slobber on the ball as she retrieves it for another pitch.

When my arm is fatigued to the point of Tommy John, Lola sticks her whole face in the water bowl as a sign of exhaustion and concession after another successful evening of stimulation.

And if the Dodgers are at home, I turn on the game to listen to Vin Scully, which is my favorite bedtime story. A habit that started years ago with my first purchase of MLB.tv, it’s the lynchpin of creature-of-habitdom, and a sense of comfort and an unconventional anchor for my life that is often unpredictable.

I return from the bathroom where I’ve washed my face and brushed my teeth with whatever toothpaste I’ve acquired under duress at the last store visit, I find the pillows arranged in the exact fashion I’ve left them the night before, with the apartment temperature at the precise degree I require for restful sleep.

And within the hour, there we are with our Pavlovian conditioning to Vin Scully’s call of the Dodgers game… finding rest and comfort in living with some semblance of habit.

Courtyard Fence

11 Jun

Since I met him a year ago, every time I have approached the corner of my block, my heart races.

He’d planned to stop and see me, but an appointment took much longer than I’d expected, I’d forgotten my cell phone at home, and I assumed that by time I got home he’d be gone.

But he there waiting, leaning against the fence in the courtyard. It’s a fence that’s built for leaning, but too pointy for sitting. But he waited there without even seeming anxious as he read a book about pitching mechanics.

We’d learn over the months that the courtyard fence was good for many things. It served as a nice perch for opening new packs of baseball cards, it worked as a backstop for playing catch, and it was the perfect height for really long kisses with the neighbors watching.

But since he left, it’s an ugly reminder that he hasn’t been here in months. He wasn’t here to rake the leaves, nor was he here to throw snowballs at the dog when the blizzard hit. He hasn’t been here to see the tulips bloom, and he probably doesn’t know how sweet the honeysuckle smells.

There’s a bike chained to the courtyard fence that’s been there poetically since around the same time that we met… but its wheels have fallen off and the longer it sits there rusting and waiting for someone to come back for it, my resentment and disgust for the courtyard fence grows.

Sometimes, sparks are undeniable.

And sometimes there is a man more attractive and loving than you deserve, though sometimes he’s more troubled than you can counsel and too guarded emotionally.

But most of the time, those sparks take your breath away when you see him there, and realize that every moment that you spend together is a moment in which you no longer have to be alone.

Unfortunately our sparks didn’t last, as he’d found sparks with someone else, making our history irrelevant.

And then it didn’t matter how many text messages or late night phone calls we had exchanged, or the road trips we had planned for baseball season.

It certainly didn’t matter that I spent beer money on a few extra packs of baseball cards to try and find one of his favorite player, because I knew his smile would be well worth the investment.

It no longer matters that I fell asleep in his arms after we shared a bottle of champagne in bed to celebrate the Giants winning the World Series, a team neither of us gave a damn about.

And soon the only memory that matters is the one where I expect him to be standing there.

Every single day there would be wonder whether today would be the day that rounding the corner was actually like entering a time machine and he’s there in his Montreal Expos T-shirt waiting. I don’t believe in werewolves, super powers, Bigfoot, or jeans fitting perfectly from the rack, yet I couldn’t shake the idea of him standing there.

I’d made the leap from hopeless romantic to irrational romantic, where prince charming remains, regardless of the odds.

On my walk home tonight, where the only sounds I heard were traffic and faint car horns, I rounded the corner unphased.

And as I opened the gate to the courtyard, whose old hinges squeak upon entry, my heart did not race as I walked past the memory of him holding my hand as he returned the baseball card I’d spent three months of the baseball season seeking as a gift for him…the sucker-punch of our relationship ending.

And I thought about the kiss on my cheek before he left me alone in the place where I had fallen in love, to go to the place where he’d fallen in love with someone else, I didn’t feel resentment or disgust anymore.

I’d finally reclaimed the space that belonged to me that he’d always haunted…and celebrated by putting his baseball card in the spokes of the rusty bicycle that remains there.

Adventures in Solitude

17 May

There comes a point in time where you learn how to take care of yourself.

Some children learn independence early, while others still bring their laundry home to their mother’s in college. For some, the independence of taking care of oneself is a source of great pride, for others a survival mechanism.

I think I learned at a young age to be self-sufficient.

I knew how to do laundry, which meant waking up early to iron my oxfords with the hideous Peter Pan collars for my uniform I wore to Saint Francis Borgia parochial school every day.

I didn’t want training wheels on my bicycle, because I knew without them I’d be able to ride my bike to school, which meant freedom.

It meant independence to duck down the paths I’d been warned to avoid; it meant staying later at the ball fields after softball practice was over so I could do a little extra base running.

The freedoms were important.

In college, I met a man whose biggest fault was that he could never leave me alone.

Clearly the image in my head of dating a man several years my senior—a divorced bachelor—were much different than its realities.

As a successful businessman who seemed to have life figured out, I assumed he was arrogant. But, he was the most insecure man I’d ever met. Because of this, my vision of coexisting independently was never realized, as we melded into the same person over the duration of our time together.

Though we preach independence, we become accustomed to support systems.

They become the backbone for everyday interactions, and when we ask life’s big questions, the support system answers.

“What do you want for dinner?” (Steak. His  answer was always steak)

“What should I wear to the party?” (The blue dress, he’d say because it matches your eyes, but no heels or you’re too tall)

“Where can we go on vacation?” (Anywhere except the beach)

“Do you love me?” (More than life itself)

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When we separated nearly five years later, I had forgotten how to do things for myself. Making a decision without consulting him for advice seemed tedious. I changed careers and life-goals and floundered on all of those decisions without support.

The dread and worry of creating your own path can be exhausting. I know that I second-guessed every decision I made for months following our separation. Did I make the right decision? Could I change a flat tire myself? How many cups of sugar were in his mom’s fudge recipe?

The post break-up tabula rasa was now filled with clichéd attempts at finding myself, building a new chapter. A new apartment in a funky neighborhood about thirty minutes from where I’d be attending graduate school. A new job that let me work at home; a new puppy to keep me company.

But it all felt like a futile attempt to bide time until something better, something purposeful bigger than myself, came along.

So, I tried dating.

I waited for men to return phone calls, and they rarely did. I went out with men that were out of my league, and others who were embarrassing to be seen with in public (like a Yankees fan).

But it never lasted, and we’d inevitably go our separate ways over small differences. If they didn’t know the Stones were superior to the Beatles or that Dustin Pedroia had earned the 2008 AL MVP, there was clearly no foundation for a healthy relationship.

The clarity came when I learned to take care of myself.

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It was still winter and some sort of independent woman aura took over me. I spent my day record shopping in Wicker Park, an activity I’ve often done alone. While it’s not quite as satisfying to find a copy of an old vinyl by the Kinks when no one’s watching, it’s still a thrill nonetheless.

After the record shopping, I marched myself into a bar where I ordered a beer and watched hockey on one of the big screens. Though I felt awkward about being in a crowded bar alone, it was somewhat freeing. No one noticed me and I was content in solitude.

That day, the adventures in solitude began.

Instead of the world passing me by while I waited for phone calls from friends (which I don’t have many) or dates (which I have even fewer), I took the world by storm at my own pace and did the things I wanted to do, regardless of company.

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Then came baseball season.

Perhaps the thing about the move to Chicago I’d underestimated was its proximity to Major League Baseball.

There are two teams in the city (we’ll consider the Chicago Cubs are a major league team, for argument’s sake).

Milwaukee has the Brewers.

Detroit, Minneapolis, St. Louis, and Cleveland are just a road trip and cheap hotel room away.

At first, I’ll admit, there was a daunting fear of going to a baseball game alone. When you go to a game, you see reminders of society’s norms all around.

Proud fathers bringing their children to their first games.

Young couples snuggled under blankets and huddling for body warmth on a cool spring evening.

Businessmen entertaining clients.

…and then there’s me. Alone, surrounded by silence, scorecards, and a moleskine notebook where I keep a game log.

My first reaction, especially on my first few endeavors, was to tense up and feel depressed… envious of those around me. Sure, there was baseball and that was the reason I came, but it certainly didn’t help the loneliness. There was always that nagging feeling of if 32,458 others at the game had found happiness, why couldn’t I?

It took time, but I finally realized that enjoying moments in life, regardless of company are what make life worth living.

And not just a idle living… but a celebratory sort of living. An embracing every moment and cherishing the things I do have, rather than the ones I don’t.

That dread and loneliness I once felt morphed into a genuine appreciation for the quiet times that I can spend in contemplation, deeply immersed in my scorebook, a 40-man roster, and peanuts.

I realize now that sometimes the opportunities and risks we take in life are the contentment and security we’ve been seeking all along.

I’m finally living in the way I’d dreamed about when I was a kid—free of training wheels and able to take paths I’d been warned against just to run a few extra bases by myself.

Turns out, we really do create our own happiness.

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